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    <title>Abraxian</title>
    <link>https://abraxian.writeas.com/</link>
    <description>A indifferent author of dark gothic poetry </description>
    <pubDate>Thu, 03 Sep 2026 05:27:17 +0000</pubDate>
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      <title>I Am Not One of You</title>
      <link>https://abraxian.writeas.com/i-am-not-one-of-you-ptc8?pk_campaign=rss-feed</link>
      <description>&lt;![CDATA[I Am Not One of You&#xA;&#xA;Once, there was a boy&#xA;who loved humanity.&#xA;&#xA;Not the idea of it.&#xA;&#xA;Not some distant dream&#xA;of what mankind might become.&#xA;&#xA;He loved the people themselves.&#xA;&#xA;Their laughter.&#xA;&#xA;Their hands.&#xA;&#xA;Their fragile little lives&#xA;burning against the vastness&#xA;of an uncaring world.&#xA;&#xA;He believed his species&#xA;was beautiful.&#xA;&#xA;He believed kindness&#xA;was something sacred.&#xA;&#xA;And he possessed it&#xA;in abundance.&#xA;&#xA;A gentle thing.&#xA;&#xA;A tender thing.&#xA;&#xA;A boy who would have given&#xA;everything he owned&#xA;to ease another&#39;s suffering.&#xA;&#xA;And they laughed.&#xA;&#xA;They called his kindness cute.&#xA;&#xA;They smiled at his innocence&#xA;as though innocence&#xA;were something amusing&#xA;to be outgrown.&#xA;&#xA;Then they hurt him.&#xA;&#xA;And when he begged—&#xA;&#xA;they hurt him again.&#xA;&#xA;Pain became his childhood.&#xA;&#xA;Fear became his lullaby.&#xA;&#xA;Suffering became the language&#xA;spoken most fluently&#xA;by the world around him.&#xA;&#xA;He learned things&#xA;no child should ever know.&#xA;&#xA;He learned that a scream&#xA;does not guarantee rescue.&#xA;&#xA;That tears&#xA;do not summon mercy.&#xA;&#xA;That begging&#xA;does not make cruel hands stop.&#xA;&#xA;That sometimes&#xA;the world hears a child crying&#xA;&#xA;and simply&#xA;&#xA;continues.&#xA;&#xA;So he begged.&#xA;&#xA;God, how he begged.&#xA;&#xA;Not for greatness.&#xA;&#xA;Not for riches.&#xA;&#xA;Not for vengeance.&#xA;&#xA;Only for someone&#xA;to be kind.&#xA;&#xA;Only for someone&#xA;to look upon him&#xA;and decide—&#xA;&#xA;You have suffered enough.&#xA;&#xA;No one came.&#xA;&#xA;And slowly,&#xA;&#xA;the thing inside him&#xA;that had been pure&#xA;began to change.&#xA;&#xA;His kindness became caution.&#xA;&#xA;His trust became fear.&#xA;&#xA;His love became indifference.&#xA;&#xA;His faith became silence.&#xA;&#xA;And the boy who once believed&#xA;humanity was worth everything&#xA;began watching his people&#xA;destroy one another.&#xA;&#xA;He watched them wage wars&#xA;over borders drawn in dirt.&#xA;&#xA;He watched them slaughter&#xA;for gods they claimed were loving.&#xA;&#xA;He watched the strong devour&#xA;the weak.&#xA;&#xA;He watched the hungry&#xA;be blamed for starving.&#xA;&#xA;He watched the wounded&#xA;be condemned for bleeding.&#xA;&#xA;He watched children&#xA;inherit the hatred&#xA;of their fathers&#xA;before they were old enough&#xA;to understand why.&#xA;&#xA;He watched men&#xA;turn suffering into entertainment.&#xA;&#xA;He watched cruelty&#xA;become profitable.&#xA;&#xA;He watched compassion&#xA;become weakness.&#xA;&#xA;He watched the powerful&#xA;call their appetites&#xA;principles.&#xA;&#xA;And eventually&#xA;he stopped asking—&#xA;&#xA;How could they do this?&#xA;&#xA;Because the answer became&#xA;too obvious.&#xA;&#xA;They could.&#xA;&#xA;That was enough.&#xA;&#xA;But one question&#xA;remained.&#xA;&#xA;One question&#xA;that followed him&#xA;through every sleepless night.&#xA;&#xA;Through every memory.&#xA;&#xA;Through every scar.&#xA;&#xA;Through every grave.&#xA;&#xA;He would look upon the forests&#xA;and watch wolves hunt.&#xA;&#xA;Yet after the hunt,&#xA;&#xA;the pack remained a pack.&#xA;&#xA;He watched animals&#xA;protect their young.&#xA;&#xA;Share warmth.&#xA;&#xA;Mourn their dead.&#xA;&#xA;Fight only because&#xA;hunger demanded it.&#xA;&#xA;And then he looked at mankind.&#xA;&#xA;And wondered—&#xA;&#xA;Why?&#xA;&#xA;Why do we suffer&#xA;greater than beasts?&#xA;&#xA;Why does the creature&#xA;that claims to possess reason&#xA;invent a thousand reasons&#xA;to be cruel?&#xA;&#xA;Why does the creature&#xA;that speaks of love&#xA;practice hatred&#xA;with such precision?&#xA;&#xA;Why does the creature&#xA;that builds temples&#xA;also build prisons?&#xA;&#xA;Why does the creature&#xA;that writes poems&#xA;write them beside graves&#xA;it dug itself?&#xA;&#xA;Why do we hurt&#xA;those who cannot fight back?&#xA;&#xA;Why do we abandon&#xA;those who beg?&#xA;&#xA;Why do we break&#xA;what is gentle—&#xA;&#xA;and then wonder&#xA;why it became afraid?&#xA;&#xA;He searched for the answer.&#xA;&#xA;He searched in philosophy.&#xA;&#xA;In religion.&#xA;&#xA;In history.&#xA;&#xA;In the faces of strangers.&#xA;&#xA;In the faces of friends.&#xA;&#xA;He searched inside himself.&#xA;&#xA;And found nothing.&#xA;&#xA;Only the terrible realization&#xA;&#xA;that perhaps humanity&#xA;was never the noble thing&#xA;he believed it was.&#xA;&#xA;Perhaps kindness&#xA;was the exception.&#xA;&#xA;Perhaps cruelty&#xA;was the inheritance.&#xA;&#xA;Perhaps civilization&#xA;was only a thin white cloth&#xA;draped over something ancient&#xA;and hungry.&#xA;&#xA;And perhaps&#xA;the greatest lie&#xA;he had ever been taught&#xA;&#xA;was that being human&#xA;was something to be proud of.&#xA;&#xA;So the boy died.&#xA;&#xA;Not in one moment.&#xA;&#xA;That would have been mercy.&#xA;&#xA;He died slowly.&#xA;&#xA;Piece by piece.&#xA;&#xA;Every cruelty&#xA;buried another part of him.&#xA;&#xA;Every abandonment&#xA;covered another handful of earth.&#xA;&#xA;Every unanswered plea&#xA;lowered the coffin deeper.&#xA;&#xA;Until one day,&#xA;&#xA;there was only a man.&#xA;&#xA;A man who looks upon humanity&#xA;and feels no brotherhood.&#xA;&#xA;No warmth.&#xA;&#xA;No pride.&#xA;&#xA;No longing&#xA;to be welcomed home.&#xA;&#xA;Only disgust.&#xA;&#xA;And pity.&#xA;&#xA;Pity most of all.&#xA;&#xA;Because he no longer hates them&#xA;for what they are.&#xA;&#xA;He pities them&#xA;for what they could have been.&#xA;&#xA;He pities the species&#xA;that learned to fly&#xA;before learning how&#xA;to stop crushing one another.&#xA;&#xA;He pities the species&#xA;that conquered oceans&#xA;while drowning its own.&#xA;&#xA;He pities the species&#xA;that can understand&#xA;the suffering of another creature&#xA;and still choose to cause it.&#xA;&#xA;And when someone calls him&#xA;human,&#xA;&#xA;something inside him recoils.&#xA;&#xA;The word is not an identity anymore.&#xA;&#xA;It is an insult.&#xA;&#xA;A reminder.&#xA;&#xA;A chain around the throat&#xA;of the boy he used to be.&#xA;&#xA;So he refuses it.&#xA;&#xA;He will not claim&#xA;their name.&#xA;&#xA;He will not inherit&#xA;their pride.&#xA;&#xA;He will not call himself&#xA;one of them.&#xA;&#xA;Because somewhere&#xA;in the ruins of his childhood&#xA;still lies a boy&#xA;who loved humanity&#xA;with everything he had.&#xA;&#xA;And that boy deserved&#xA;a world worthy of his love.&#xA;&#xA;Instead,&#xA;&#xA;they took his kindness&#xA;and called it cute.&#xA;&#xA;They took his purity&#xA;and taught it fear.&#xA;&#xA;They took his faith&#xA;and fed it suffering.&#xA;&#xA;They took a child&#xA;who would have given&#xA;everything to them—&#xA;&#xA;and gave him nothing&#xA;but reasons&#xA;to turn away.&#xA;&#xA;So let humanity&#xA;keep its name.&#xA;&#xA;Let it keep its crowns.&#xA;&#xA;Its flags.&#xA;&#xA;Its gods.&#xA;&#xA;Its wars.&#xA;&#xA;Its beautiful speeches&#xA;spoken over ugly deeds.&#xA;&#xA;He wants none of it.&#xA;&#xA;And yet—&#xA;&#xA;he could not be silent.&#xA;&#xA;No.&#xA;&#xA;Silence was what they had taught him&#xA;when he begged.&#xA;&#xA;Silence was what they offered&#xA;when he cried.&#xA;&#xA;Silence was what surrounded him&#xA;while he suffered.&#xA;&#xA;He would not give it back&#xA;to them.&#xA;&#xA;So he wrote.&#xA;&#xA;He drew.&#xA;&#xA;He sang.&#xA;&#xA;He screamed words&#xA;into pages&#xA;until ink became blood.&#xA;&#xA;He took every lie&#xA;they had spoken&#xA;and dragged it into the light.&#xA;&#xA;Every excuse.&#xA;&#xA;Every hypocrisy.&#xA;&#xA;Every polished word&#xA;covering an ugly deed.&#xA;&#xA;He bore their lies&#xA;upon his back—&#xA;&#xA;then laid them bare&#xA;before the world.&#xA;&#xA;They knocked him down.&#xA;&#xA;Again.&#xA;&#xA;And again.&#xA;&#xA;And again.&#xA;&#xA;And each time&#xA;they looked upon the ground&#xA;expecting him to remain there.&#xA;&#xA;But they never understood.&#xA;&#xA;They had mistaken&#xA;his falling&#xA;for surrender.&#xA;&#xA;They had mistaken&#xA;his silence&#xA;for weakness.&#xA;&#xA;They had mistaken&#xA;his gentleness&#xA;for something they could&#xA;destroy without consequence.&#xA;&#xA;So the man rose.&#xA;&#xA;And something in him&#xA;had changed.&#xA;&#xA;He no longer spoke&#xA;like the boy they remembered.&#xA;&#xA;He snarled.&#xA;&#xA;He howled.&#xA;&#xA;A dog whipped&#xA;one time too many&#xA;does not forever remain&#xA;the creature that trembled&#xA;at the hand.&#xA;&#xA;Eventually,&#xA;&#xA;it bares its teeth.&#xA;&#xA;Eventually,&#xA;&#xA;it learns where to bite.&#xA;&#xA;And eventually,&#xA;&#xA;the thing that kept beating it&#xA;discovers that the creature&#xA;it thought was broken&#xA;&#xA;still has a mouth.&#xA;&#xA;So now—&#xA;&#xA;he sinks his teeth&#xA;into the conscience&#xA;of his species.&#xA;&#xA;Not flesh.&#xA;&#xA;Not blood.&#xA;&#xA;Truth.&#xA;&#xA;He tears away&#xA;the comforting skin&#xA;they wrapped around themselves.&#xA;&#xA;And when they recoil,&#xA;&#xA;he holds up a mirror.&#xA;&#xA;Look.&#xA;&#xA;Look at yourselves.&#xA;&#xA;Look at what you have made.&#xA;&#xA;Look at the child&#xA;you taught to fear.&#xA;&#xA;Look at the kindness&#xA;you mocked.&#xA;&#xA;Look at the purity&#xA;you corrupted.&#xA;&#xA;Look at the faith&#xA;you starved.&#xA;&#xA;Look at the man&#xA;standing before you.&#xA;&#xA;This is your reflection.&#xA;&#xA;His name is—&#xA;&#xA;Abraxian.&#xA;&#xA;He chose the name himself.&#xA;&#xA;Not human.&#xA;&#xA;Not savior.&#xA;&#xA;Not prophet.&#xA;&#xA;Not saint.&#xA;&#xA;Abraxian.&#xA;&#xA;He is not kind.&#xA;&#xA;He does not care&#xA;whether you approve of him.&#xA;&#xA;He does not care&#xA;whether you like his words.&#xA;&#xA;He does not ask&#xA;for your forgiveness.&#xA;&#xA;He does not need&#xA;your understanding.&#xA;&#xA;He has no interest&#xA;in being made comfortable&#xA;by your opinion of him.&#xA;&#xA;He only asks one thing:&#xA;&#xA;Look.&#xA;&#xA;Look into his world.&#xA;&#xA;Look beyond the teeth.&#xA;&#xA;Beyond the snarling.&#xA;&#xA;Beyond the hatred&#xA;you think you see.&#xA;&#xA;And you may discover&#xA;something far more terrible.&#xA;&#xA;You may discover&#xA;the boy.&#xA;&#xA;The boy who loved you.&#xA;&#xA;The boy who believed in you.&#xA;&#xA;The boy who would have given&#xA;everything he possessed&#xA;to make this species&#xA;a little kinder.&#xA;&#xA;And then you may understand&#xA;why he became the man&#xA;standing before you.&#xA;&#xA;Why he howls.&#xA;&#xA;Why he writes.&#xA;&#xA;Why he sings.&#xA;&#xA;Why he refuses your name.&#xA;&#xA;Why he holds the mirror&#xA;instead of lowering it.&#xA;&#xA;Because beneath every snarl&#xA;there remains an accusation.&#xA;&#xA;Beneath every howl&#xA;there remains a plea.&#xA;&#xA;And beneath every word&#xA;there remains the ghost&#xA;of a little boy&#xA;still asking the question&#xA;humanity never answered:&#xA;&#xA;Why do we suffer&#xA;greater than beasts?&#xA;&#xA;And when the mirror finally&#xA;stands before the world,&#xA;&#xA;there is nowhere left&#xA;to hide.&#xA;&#xA;No crown.&#xA;&#xA;No flag.&#xA;&#xA;No god.&#xA;&#xA;No law.&#xA;&#xA;No beautiful speech.&#xA;&#xA;Only the reflection.&#xA;&#xA;Only the truth.&#xA;&#xA;Only humanity&#xA;staring into the eyes&#xA;of the thing it created.&#xA;&#xA;And Abraxian&#xA;stares back.&#xA;&#xA;He does not smile.&#xA;&#xA;He does not forgive.&#xA;&#xA;He does not look away.&#xA;&#xA;He simply says—&#xA;&#xA;“I am not one of you.”&#xA;&#xA;And for the first time,&#xA;&#xA;the words are not spoken&#xA;by a wounded boy.&#xA;&#xA;They are spoken&#xA;by a man.&#xA;&#xA;A man who survived&#xA;what was meant to destroy him.&#xA;&#xA;A man who lost&#xA;his love for humanity—&#xA;&#xA;but never lost&#xA;his voice.&#xA;&#xA;And perhaps that&#xA;is humanity&#39;s greatest mistake.&#xA;&#xA;They thought&#xA;they could break him.&#xA;&#xA;They never understood&#xA;&#xA;that broken things&#xA;can still howl.&#xA;&#xA;And some of them&#xA;&#xA;learn to bite.]]&gt;</description>
      <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I Am Not One of You</p>

<p>Once, there was a boy
who loved humanity.</p>

<p>Not the idea of it.</p>

<p>Not some distant dream
of what mankind might become.</p>

<p>He loved the people themselves.</p>

<p>Their laughter.</p>

<p>Their hands.</p>

<p>Their fragile little lives
burning against the vastness
of an uncaring world.</p>

<p>He believed his species
was beautiful.</p>

<p>He believed kindness
was something sacred.</p>

<p>And he possessed it
in abundance.</p>

<p>A gentle thing.</p>

<p>A tender thing.</p>

<p>A boy who would have given
everything he owned
to ease another&#39;s suffering.</p>

<p>And they laughed.</p>

<p>They called his kindness cute.</p>

<p>They smiled at his innocence
as though innocence
were something amusing
to be outgrown.</p>

<p>Then they hurt him.</p>

<p>And when he begged—</p>

<p>they hurt him again.</p>

<p>Pain became his childhood.</p>

<p>Fear became his lullaby.</p>

<p>Suffering became the language
spoken most fluently
by the world around him.</p>

<p>He learned things
no child should ever know.</p>

<p>He learned that a scream
does not guarantee rescue.</p>

<p>That tears
do not summon mercy.</p>

<p>That begging
does not make cruel hands stop.</p>

<p>That sometimes
the world hears a child crying</p>

<p>and simply</p>

<p>continues.</p>

<p>So he begged.</p>

<p>God, how he begged.</p>

<p>Not for greatness.</p>

<p>Not for riches.</p>

<p>Not for vengeance.</p>

<p>Only for someone
to be kind.</p>

<p>Only for someone
to look upon him
and decide—</p>

<p>You have suffered enough.</p>

<p>No one came.</p>

<p>And slowly,</p>

<p>the thing inside him
that had been pure
began to change.</p>

<p>His kindness became caution.</p>

<p>His trust became fear.</p>

<p>His love became indifference.</p>

<p>His faith became silence.</p>

<p>And the boy who once believed
humanity was worth everything
began watching his people
destroy one another.</p>

<p>He watched them wage wars
over borders drawn in dirt.</p>

<p>He watched them slaughter
for gods they claimed were loving.</p>

<p>He watched the strong devour
the weak.</p>

<p>He watched the hungry
be blamed for starving.</p>

<p>He watched the wounded
be condemned for bleeding.</p>

<p>He watched children
inherit the hatred
of their fathers
before they were old enough
to understand why.</p>

<p>He watched men
turn suffering into entertainment.</p>

<p>He watched cruelty
become profitable.</p>

<p>He watched compassion
become weakness.</p>

<p>He watched the powerful
call their appetites
principles.</p>

<p>And eventually
he stopped asking—</p>

<p>How could they do this?</p>

<p>Because the answer became
too obvious.</p>

<p>They could.</p>

<p>That was enough.</p>

<p>But one question
remained.</p>

<p>One question
that followed him
through every sleepless night.</p>

<p>Through every memory.</p>

<p>Through every scar.</p>

<p>Through every grave.</p>

<p>He would look upon the forests
and watch wolves hunt.</p>

<p>Yet after the hunt,</p>

<p>the pack remained a pack.</p>

<p>He watched animals
protect their young.</p>

<p>Share warmth.</p>

<p>Mourn their dead.</p>

<p>Fight only because
hunger demanded it.</p>

<p>And then he looked at mankind.</p>

<p>And wondered—</p>

<p>Why?</p>

<p>Why do we suffer
greater than beasts?</p>

<p>Why does the creature
that claims to possess reason
invent a thousand reasons
to be cruel?</p>

<p>Why does the creature
that speaks of love
practice hatred
with such precision?</p>

<p>Why does the creature
that builds temples
also build prisons?</p>

<p>Why does the creature
that writes poems
write them beside graves
it dug itself?</p>

<p>Why do we hurt
those who cannot fight back?</p>

<p>Why do we abandon
those who beg?</p>

<p>Why do we break
what is gentle—</p>

<p>and then wonder
why it became afraid?</p>

<p>He searched for the answer.</p>

<p>He searched in philosophy.</p>

<p>In religion.</p>

<p>In history.</p>

<p>In the faces of strangers.</p>

<p>In the faces of friends.</p>

<p>He searched inside himself.</p>

<p>And found nothing.</p>

<p>Only the terrible realization</p>

<p>that perhaps humanity
was never the noble thing
he believed it was.</p>

<p>Perhaps kindness
was the exception.</p>

<p>Perhaps cruelty
was the inheritance.</p>

<p>Perhaps civilization
was only a thin white cloth
draped over something ancient
and hungry.</p>

<p>And perhaps
the greatest lie
he had ever been taught</p>

<p>was that being human
was something to be proud of.</p>

<p>So the boy died.</p>

<p>Not in one moment.</p>

<p>That would have been mercy.</p>

<p>He died slowly.</p>

<p>Piece by piece.</p>

<p>Every cruelty
buried another part of him.</p>

<p>Every abandonment
covered another handful of earth.</p>

<p>Every unanswered plea
lowered the coffin deeper.</p>

<p>Until one day,</p>

<p>there was only a man.</p>

<p>A man who looks upon humanity
and feels no brotherhood.</p>

<p>No warmth.</p>

<p>No pride.</p>

<p>No longing
to be welcomed home.</p>

<p>Only disgust.</p>

<p>And pity.</p>

<p>Pity most of all.</p>

<p>Because he no longer hates them
for what they are.</p>

<p>He pities them
for what they could have been.</p>

<p>He pities the species
that learned to fly
before learning how
to stop crushing one another.</p>

<p>He pities the species
that conquered oceans
while drowning its own.</p>

<p>He pities the species
that can understand
the suffering of another creature
and still choose to cause it.</p>

<p>And when someone calls him
human,</p>

<p>something inside him recoils.</p>

<p>The word is not an identity anymore.</p>

<p>It is an insult.</p>

<p>A reminder.</p>

<p>A chain around the throat
of the boy he used to be.</p>

<p>So he refuses it.</p>

<p>He will not claim
their name.</p>

<p>He will not inherit
their pride.</p>

<p>He will not call himself
one of them.</p>

<p>Because somewhere
in the ruins of his childhood
still lies a boy
who loved humanity
with everything he had.</p>

<p>And that boy deserved
a world worthy of his love.</p>

<p>Instead,</p>

<p>they took his kindness
and called it cute.</p>

<p>They took his purity
and taught it fear.</p>

<p>They took his faith
and fed it suffering.</p>

<p>They took a child
who would have given
everything to them—</p>

<p>and gave him nothing
but reasons
to turn away.</p>

<p>So let humanity
keep its name.</p>

<p>Let it keep its crowns.</p>

<p>Its flags.</p>

<p>Its gods.</p>

<p>Its wars.</p>

<p>Its beautiful speeches
spoken over ugly deeds.</p>

<p>He wants none of it.</p>

<p>And yet—</p>

<p>he could not be silent.</p>

<p>No.</p>

<p>Silence was what they had taught him
when he begged.</p>

<p>Silence was what they offered
when he cried.</p>

<p>Silence was what surrounded him
while he suffered.</p>

<p>He would not give it back
to them.</p>

<p>So he wrote.</p>

<p>He drew.</p>

<p>He sang.</p>

<p>He screamed words
into pages
until ink became blood.</p>

<p>He took every lie
they had spoken
and dragged it into the light.</p>

<p>Every excuse.</p>

<p>Every hypocrisy.</p>

<p>Every polished word
covering an ugly deed.</p>

<p>He bore their lies
upon his back—</p>

<p>then laid them bare
before the world.</p>

<p>They knocked him down.</p>

<p>Again.</p>

<p>And again.</p>

<p>And again.</p>

<p>And each time
they looked upon the ground
expecting him to remain there.</p>

<p>But they never understood.</p>

<p>They had mistaken
his falling
for surrender.</p>

<p>They had mistaken
his silence
for weakness.</p>

<p>They had mistaken
his gentleness
for something they could
destroy without consequence.</p>

<p>So the man rose.</p>

<p>And something in him
had changed.</p>

<p>He no longer spoke
like the boy they remembered.</p>

<p>He snarled.</p>

<p>He howled.</p>

<p>A dog whipped
one time too many
does not forever remain
the creature that trembled
at the hand.</p>

<p>Eventually,</p>

<p>it bares its teeth.</p>

<p>Eventually,</p>

<p>it learns where to bite.</p>

<p>And eventually,</p>

<p>the thing that kept beating it
discovers that the creature
it thought was broken</p>

<p>still has a mouth.</p>

<p>So now—</p>

<p>he sinks his teeth
into the conscience
of his species.</p>

<p>Not flesh.</p>

<p>Not blood.</p>

<p>Truth.</p>

<p>He tears away
the comforting skin
they wrapped around themselves.</p>

<p>And when they recoil,</p>

<p>he holds up a mirror.</p>

<p>Look.</p>

<p>Look at yourselves.</p>

<p>Look at what you have made.</p>

<p>Look at the child
you taught to fear.</p>

<p>Look at the kindness
you mocked.</p>

<p>Look at the purity
you corrupted.</p>

<p>Look at the faith
you starved.</p>

<p>Look at the man
standing before you.</p>

<p>This is your reflection.</p>

<p>His name is—</p>

<p>Abraxian.</p>

<p>He chose the name himself.</p>

<p>Not human.</p>

<p>Not savior.</p>

<p>Not prophet.</p>

<p>Not saint.</p>

<p>Abraxian.</p>

<p>He is not kind.</p>

<p>He does not care
whether you approve of him.</p>

<p>He does not care
whether you like his words.</p>

<p>He does not ask
for your forgiveness.</p>

<p>He does not need
your understanding.</p>

<p>He has no interest
in being made comfortable
by your opinion of him.</p>

<p>He only asks one thing:</p>

<p>Look.</p>

<p>Look into his world.</p>

<p>Look beyond the teeth.</p>

<p>Beyond the snarling.</p>

<p>Beyond the hatred
you think you see.</p>

<p>And you may discover
something far more terrible.</p>

<p>You may discover
the boy.</p>

<p>The boy who loved you.</p>

<p>The boy who believed in you.</p>

<p>The boy who would have given
everything he possessed
to make this species
a little kinder.</p>

<p>And then you may understand
why he became the man
standing before you.</p>

<p>Why he howls.</p>

<p>Why he writes.</p>

<p>Why he sings.</p>

<p>Why he refuses your name.</p>

<p>Why he holds the mirror
instead of lowering it.</p>

<p>Because beneath every snarl
there remains an accusation.</p>

<p>Beneath every howl
there remains a plea.</p>

<p>And beneath every word
there remains the ghost
of a little boy
still asking the question
humanity never answered:</p>

<p>Why do we suffer
greater than beasts?</p>

<p>And when the mirror finally
stands before the world,</p>

<p>there is nowhere left
to hide.</p>

<p>No crown.</p>

<p>No flag.</p>

<p>No god.</p>

<p>No law.</p>

<p>No beautiful speech.</p>

<p>Only the reflection.</p>

<p>Only the truth.</p>

<p>Only humanity
staring into the eyes
of the thing it created.</p>

<p>And Abraxian
stares back.</p>

<p>He does not smile.</p>

<p>He does not forgive.</p>

<p>He does not look away.</p>

<p>He simply says—</p>

<p>“I am not one of you.”</p>

<p>And for the first time,</p>

<p>the words are not spoken
by a wounded boy.</p>

<p>They are spoken
by a man.</p>

<p>A man who survived
what was meant to destroy him.</p>

<p>A man who lost
his love for humanity—</p>

<p>but never lost
his voice.</p>

<p>And perhaps that
is humanity&#39;s greatest mistake.</p>

<p>They thought
they could break him.</p>

<p>They never understood</p>

<p>that broken things
can still howl.</p>

<p>And some of them</p>

<p>learn to bite.</p>
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      <title>I Am Not One of You</title>
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      <description>&lt;![CDATA[I Am Not One of You&#xA;&#xA;Once, there was a boy&#xA;who loved humanity.&#xA;&#xA;Not the idea of it.&#xA;&#xA;Not some distant dream&#xA;of what mankind might become.&#xA;&#xA;He loved the people themselves.&#xA;&#xA;Their laughter.&#xA;&#xA;Their hands.&#xA;&#xA;Their fragile little lives&#xA;burning against the vastness&#xA;of an uncaring world.&#xA;&#xA;He believed his species&#xA;was beautiful.&#xA;&#xA;He believed kindness&#xA;was something sacred.&#xA;&#xA;And he possessed it&#xA;in abundance.&#xA;&#xA;A gentle thing.&#xA;&#xA;A tender thing.&#xA;&#xA;A boy who would have given&#xA;everything he owned&#xA;to ease another&#39;s suffering.&#xA;&#xA;And they laughed.&#xA;&#xA;They called his kindness cute.&#xA;&#xA;They smiled at his innocence&#xA;as though innocence&#xA;were something amusing&#xA;to be outgrown.&#xA;&#xA;Then they hurt him.&#xA;&#xA;And when he begged—&#xA;&#xA;they hurt him again.&#xA;&#xA;Pain became his childhood.&#xA;&#xA;Fear became his lullaby.&#xA;&#xA;Suffering became the language&#xA;spoken most fluently&#xA;by the world around him.&#xA;&#xA;He learned things&#xA;no child should ever know.&#xA;&#xA;He learned that a scream&#xA;does not guarantee rescue.&#xA;&#xA;That tears&#xA;do not summon mercy.&#xA;&#xA;That begging&#xA;does not make cruel hands stop.&#xA;&#xA;That sometimes&#xA;the world hears a child crying&#xA;&#xA;and simply&#xA;&#xA;continues.&#xA;&#xA;So he begged.&#xA;&#xA;God, how he begged.&#xA;&#xA;Not for greatness.&#xA;&#xA;Not for riches.&#xA;&#xA;Not for vengeance.&#xA;&#xA;Only for someone&#xA;to be kind.&#xA;&#xA;Only for someone&#xA;to look upon him&#xA;and decide—&#xA;&#xA;You have suffered enough.&#xA;&#xA;No one came.&#xA;&#xA;And slowly,&#xA;&#xA;the thing inside him&#xA;that had been pure&#xA;began to change.&#xA;&#xA;His kindness became caution.&#xA;&#xA;His trust became fear.&#xA;&#xA;His love became indifference.&#xA;&#xA;His faith became silence.&#xA;&#xA;And the boy who once believed&#xA;humanity was worth everything&#xA;began watching his people&#xA;destroy one another.&#xA;&#xA;He watched them wage wars&#xA;over borders drawn in dirt.&#xA;&#xA;He watched them slaughter&#xA;for gods they claimed were loving.&#xA;&#xA;He watched the strong devour&#xA;the weak.&#xA;&#xA;He watched the hungry&#xA;be blamed for starving.&#xA;&#xA;He watched the wounded&#xA;be condemned for bleeding.&#xA;&#xA;He watched children&#xA;inherit the hatred&#xA;of their fathers&#xA;before they were old enough&#xA;to understand why.&#xA;&#xA;He watched men&#xA;turn suffering into entertainment.&#xA;&#xA;He watched cruelty&#xA;become profitable.&#xA;&#xA;He watched compassion&#xA;become weakness.&#xA;&#xA;He watched the powerful&#xA;call their appetites&#xA;principles.&#xA;&#xA;And eventually&#xA;he stopped asking—&#xA;&#xA;How could they do this?&#xA;&#xA;Because the answer became&#xA;too obvious.&#xA;&#xA;They could.&#xA;&#xA;That was enough.&#xA;&#xA;But one question&#xA;remained.&#xA;&#xA;One question&#xA;that followed him&#xA;through every sleepless night.&#xA;&#xA;Through every memory.&#xA;&#xA;Through every scar.&#xA;&#xA;Through every grave.&#xA;&#xA;He would look upon the forests&#xA;and watch wolves hunt.&#xA;&#xA;Yet after the hunt,&#xA;&#xA;the pack remained a pack.&#xA;&#xA;He watched animals&#xA;protect their young.&#xA;&#xA;Share warmth.&#xA;&#xA;Mourn their dead.&#xA;&#xA;Fight only because&#xA;hunger demanded it.&#xA;&#xA;And then he looked at mankind.&#xA;&#xA;And wondered—&#xA;&#xA;Why?&#xA;&#xA;Why do we suffer&#xA;greater than beasts?&#xA;&#xA;Why does the creature&#xA;that claims to possess reason&#xA;invent a thousand reasons&#xA;to be cruel?&#xA;&#xA;Why does the creature&#xA;that speaks of love&#xA;practice hatred&#xA;with such precision?&#xA;&#xA;Why does the creature&#xA;that builds temples&#xA;also build prisons?&#xA;&#xA;Why does the creature&#xA;that writes poems&#xA;write them beside graves&#xA;it dug itself?&#xA;&#xA;Why do we hurt&#xA;those who cannot fight back?&#xA;&#xA;Why do we abandon&#xA;those who beg?&#xA;&#xA;Why do we break&#xA;what is gentle—&#xA;&#xA;and then wonder&#xA;why it became afraid?&#xA;&#xA;He searched for the answer.&#xA;&#xA;He searched in philosophy.&#xA;&#xA;In religion.&#xA;&#xA;In history.&#xA;&#xA;In the faces of strangers.&#xA;&#xA;In the faces of friends.&#xA;&#xA;He searched inside himself.&#xA;&#xA;And found nothing.&#xA;&#xA;Only the terrible realization&#xA;&#xA;that perhaps humanity&#xA;was never the noble thing&#xA;he believed it was.&#xA;&#xA;Perhaps kindness&#xA;was the exception.&#xA;&#xA;Perhaps cruelty&#xA;was the inheritance.&#xA;&#xA;Perhaps civilization&#xA;was only a thin white cloth&#xA;draped over something ancient&#xA;and hungry.&#xA;&#xA;And perhaps&#xA;the greatest lie&#xA;he had ever been taught&#xA;&#xA;was that being human&#xA;was something to be proud of.&#xA;&#xA;So the boy died.&#xA;&#xA;Not in one moment.&#xA;&#xA;That would have been mercy.&#xA;&#xA;He died slowly.&#xA;&#xA;Piece by piece.&#xA;&#xA;Every cruelty&#xA;buried another part of him.&#xA;&#xA;Every abandonment&#xA;covered another handful of earth.&#xA;&#xA;Every unanswered plea&#xA;lowered the coffin deeper.&#xA;&#xA;Until one day,&#xA;&#xA;there was only a man.&#xA;&#xA;A man who looks upon humanity&#xA;and feels no brotherhood.&#xA;&#xA;No warmth.&#xA;&#xA;No pride.&#xA;&#xA;No longing&#xA;to be welcomed home.&#xA;&#xA;Only disgust.&#xA;&#xA;And pity.&#xA;&#xA;Pity most of all.&#xA;&#xA;Because he no longer hates them&#xA;for what they are.&#xA;&#xA;He pities them&#xA;for what they could have been.&#xA;&#xA;He pities the species&#xA;that learned to fly&#xA;before learning how&#xA;to stop crushing one another.&#xA;&#xA;He pities the species&#xA;that conquered oceans&#xA;while drowning its own.&#xA;&#xA;He pities the species&#xA;that can understand&#xA;the suffering of another creature&#xA;and still choose to cause it.&#xA;&#xA;And when someone calls him&#xA;human,&#xA;&#xA;something inside him recoils.&#xA;&#xA;The word is not an identity anymore.&#xA;&#xA;It is an insult.&#xA;&#xA;A reminder.&#xA;&#xA;A chain around the throat&#xA;of the boy he used to be.&#xA;&#xA;So he refuses it.&#xA;&#xA;He will not claim&#xA;their name.&#xA;&#xA;He will not inherit&#xA;their pride.&#xA;&#xA;He will not call himself&#xA;one of them.&#xA;&#xA;Because somewhere&#xA;in the ruins of his childhood&#xA;still lies a boy&#xA;who loved humanity&#xA;with everything he had.&#xA;&#xA;And that boy deserved&#xA;a world worthy of his love.&#xA;&#xA;Instead,&#xA;&#xA;they took his kindness&#xA;and called it cute.&#xA;&#xA;They took his purity&#xA;and taught it fear.&#xA;&#xA;They took his faith&#xA;and fed it suffering.&#xA;&#xA;They took a child&#xA;who would have given&#xA;everything to them—&#xA;&#xA;and gave him nothing&#xA;but reasons&#xA;to turn away.&#xA;&#xA;So let humanity&#xA;keep its name.&#xA;&#xA;Let it keep its crowns.&#xA;&#xA;Its flags.&#xA;&#xA;Its gods.&#xA;&#xA;Its wars.&#xA;&#xA;Its beautiful speeches&#xA;spoken over ugly deeds.&#xA;&#xA;He wants none of it.&#xA;&#xA;And yet—&#xA;&#xA;he could not be silent.&#xA;&#xA;No.&#xA;&#xA;Silence was what they had taught him&#xA;when he begged.&#xA;&#xA;Silence was what they offered&#xA;when he cried.&#xA;&#xA;Silence was what surrounded him&#xA;while he suffered.&#xA;&#xA;He would not give it back&#xA;to them.&#xA;&#xA;So he wrote.&#xA;&#xA;He drew.&#xA;&#xA;He sang.&#xA;&#xA;He screamed words&#xA;into pages&#xA;until ink became blood.&#xA;&#xA;He took every lie&#xA;they had spoken&#xA;and dragged it into the light.&#xA;&#xA;Every excuse.&#xA;&#xA;Every hypocrisy.&#xA;&#xA;Every polished word&#xA;covering an ugly deed.&#xA;&#xA;He bore their lies&#xA;upon his back—&#xA;&#xA;then laid them bare&#xA;before the world.&#xA;&#xA;They knocked him down.&#xA;&#xA;Again.&#xA;&#xA;And again.&#xA;&#xA;And again.&#xA;&#xA;And each time&#xA;they looked upon the ground&#xA;expecting him to remain there.&#xA;&#xA;But they never understood.&#xA;&#xA;They had mistaken&#xA;his falling&#xA;for surrender.&#xA;&#xA;They had mistaken&#xA;his silence&#xA;for weakness.&#xA;&#xA;They had mistaken&#xA;his gentleness&#xA;for something they could&#xA;destroy without consequence.&#xA;&#xA;So the man rose.&#xA;&#xA;And something in him&#xA;had changed.&#xA;&#xA;He no longer spoke&#xA;like the boy they remembered.&#xA;&#xA;He snarled.&#xA;&#xA;He howled.&#xA;&#xA;A dog whipped&#xA;one time too many&#xA;does not forever remain&#xA;the creature that trembled&#xA;at the hand.&#xA;&#xA;Eventually,&#xA;&#xA;it bares its teeth.&#xA;&#xA;Eventually,&#xA;&#xA;it learns where to bite.&#xA;&#xA;And eventually,&#xA;&#xA;the thing that kept beating it&#xA;discovers that the creature&#xA;it thought was broken&#xA;&#xA;still has a mouth.&#xA;&#xA;So now—&#xA;&#xA;he sinks his teeth&#xA;into the conscience&#xA;of his species.&#xA;&#xA;Not flesh.&#xA;&#xA;Not blood.&#xA;&#xA;Truth.&#xA;&#xA;He tears away&#xA;the comforting skin&#xA;they wrapped around themselves.&#xA;&#xA;And when they recoil,&#xA;&#xA;he holds up a mirror.&#xA;&#xA;Look.&#xA;&#xA;Look at yourselves.&#xA;&#xA;Look at what you have made.&#xA;&#xA;Look at the child&#xA;you taught to fear.&#xA;&#xA;Look at the kindness&#xA;you mocked.&#xA;&#xA;Look at the purity&#xA;you corrupted.&#xA;&#xA;Look at the faith&#xA;you starved.&#xA;&#xA;Look at the man&#xA;standing before you.&#xA;&#xA;This is your reflection.&#xA;&#xA;His name is—&#xA;&#xA;Abraxian.&#xA;&#xA;He chose the name himself.&#xA;&#xA;Not human.&#xA;&#xA;Not savior.&#xA;&#xA;Not prophet.&#xA;&#xA;Not saint.&#xA;&#xA;Abraxian.&#xA;&#xA;He is not kind.&#xA;&#xA;He does not care&#xA;whether you approve of him.&#xA;&#xA;He does not care&#xA;whether you like his words.&#xA;&#xA;He does not ask&#xA;for your forgiveness.&#xA;&#xA;He does not need&#xA;your understanding.&#xA;&#xA;He has no interest&#xA;in being made comfortable&#xA;by your opinion of him.&#xA;&#xA;He only asks one thing:&#xA;&#xA;Look.&#xA;&#xA;Look into his world.&#xA;&#xA;Look beyond the teeth.&#xA;&#xA;Beyond the snarling.&#xA;&#xA;Beyond the hatred&#xA;you think you see.&#xA;&#xA;And you may discover&#xA;something far more terrible.&#xA;&#xA;You may discover&#xA;the boy.&#xA;&#xA;The boy who loved you.&#xA;&#xA;The boy who believed in you.&#xA;&#xA;The boy who would have given&#xA;everything he possessed&#xA;to make this species&#xA;a little kinder.&#xA;&#xA;And then you may understand&#xA;why he became the man&#xA;standing before you.&#xA;&#xA;Why he howls.&#xA;&#xA;Why he writes.&#xA;&#xA;Why he sings.&#xA;&#xA;Why he refuses your name.&#xA;&#xA;Why he holds the mirror&#xA;instead of lowering it.&#xA;&#xA;Because beneath every snarl&#xA;there remains an accusation.&#xA;&#xA;Beneath every howl&#xA;there remains a plea.&#xA;&#xA;And beneath every word&#xA;there remains the ghost&#xA;of a little boy&#xA;still asking the question&#xA;humanity never answered:&#xA;&#xA;Why do we suffer&#xA;greater than beasts?&#xA;&#xA;And when the mirror finally&#xA;stands before the world,&#xA;&#xA;there is nowhere left&#xA;to hide.&#xA;&#xA;No crown.&#xA;&#xA;No flag.&#xA;&#xA;No god.&#xA;&#xA;No law.&#xA;&#xA;No beautiful speech.&#xA;&#xA;Only the reflection.&#xA;&#xA;Only the truth.&#xA;&#xA;Only humanity&#xA;staring into the eyes&#xA;of the thing it created.&#xA;&#xA;And Abraxian&#xA;stares back.&#xA;&#xA;He does not smile.&#xA;&#xA;He does not forgive.&#xA;&#xA;He does not look away.&#xA;&#xA;He simply says—&#xA;&#xA;“I am not one of you.”&#xA;&#xA;And for the first time,&#xA;&#xA;the words are not spoken&#xA;by a wounded boy.&#xA;&#xA;They are spoken&#xA;by a man.&#xA;&#xA;A man who survived&#xA;what was meant to destroy him.&#xA;&#xA;A man who lost&#xA;his love for humanity—&#xA;&#xA;but never lost&#xA;his voice.&#xA;&#xA;And perhaps that&#xA;is humanity&#39;s greatest mistake.&#xA;&#xA;They thought&#xA;they could break him.&#xA;&#xA;They never understood&#xA;&#xA;that broken things&#xA;can still howl.&#xA;&#xA;And some of them&#xA;&#xA;learn to bite.]]&gt;</description>
      <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I Am Not One of You</p>

<p>Once, there was a boy
who loved humanity.</p>

<p>Not the idea of it.</p>

<p>Not some distant dream
of what mankind might become.</p>

<p>He loved the people themselves.</p>

<p>Their laughter.</p>

<p>Their hands.</p>

<p>Their fragile little lives
burning against the vastness
of an uncaring world.</p>

<p>He believed his species
was beautiful.</p>

<p>He believed kindness
was something sacred.</p>

<p>And he possessed it
in abundance.</p>

<p>A gentle thing.</p>

<p>A tender thing.</p>

<p>A boy who would have given
everything he owned
to ease another&#39;s suffering.</p>

<p>And they laughed.</p>

<p>They called his kindness cute.</p>

<p>They smiled at his innocence
as though innocence
were something amusing
to be outgrown.</p>

<p>Then they hurt him.</p>

<p>And when he begged—</p>

<p>they hurt him again.</p>

<p>Pain became his childhood.</p>

<p>Fear became his lullaby.</p>

<p>Suffering became the language
spoken most fluently
by the world around him.</p>

<p>He learned things
no child should ever know.</p>

<p>He learned that a scream
does not guarantee rescue.</p>

<p>That tears
do not summon mercy.</p>

<p>That begging
does not make cruel hands stop.</p>

<p>That sometimes
the world hears a child crying</p>

<p>and simply</p>

<p>continues.</p>

<p>So he begged.</p>

<p>God, how he begged.</p>

<p>Not for greatness.</p>

<p>Not for riches.</p>

<p>Not for vengeance.</p>

<p>Only for someone
to be kind.</p>

<p>Only for someone
to look upon him
and decide—</p>

<p>You have suffered enough.</p>

<p>No one came.</p>

<p>And slowly,</p>

<p>the thing inside him
that had been pure
began to change.</p>

<p>His kindness became caution.</p>

<p>His trust became fear.</p>

<p>His love became indifference.</p>

<p>His faith became silence.</p>

<p>And the boy who once believed
humanity was worth everything
began watching his people
destroy one another.</p>

<p>He watched them wage wars
over borders drawn in dirt.</p>

<p>He watched them slaughter
for gods they claimed were loving.</p>

<p>He watched the strong devour
the weak.</p>

<p>He watched the hungry
be blamed for starving.</p>

<p>He watched the wounded
be condemned for bleeding.</p>

<p>He watched children
inherit the hatred
of their fathers
before they were old enough
to understand why.</p>

<p>He watched men
turn suffering into entertainment.</p>

<p>He watched cruelty
become profitable.</p>

<p>He watched compassion
become weakness.</p>

<p>He watched the powerful
call their appetites
principles.</p>

<p>And eventually
he stopped asking—</p>

<p>How could they do this?</p>

<p>Because the answer became
too obvious.</p>

<p>They could.</p>

<p>That was enough.</p>

<p>But one question
remained.</p>

<p>One question
that followed him
through every sleepless night.</p>

<p>Through every memory.</p>

<p>Through every scar.</p>

<p>Through every grave.</p>

<p>He would look upon the forests
and watch wolves hunt.</p>

<p>Yet after the hunt,</p>

<p>the pack remained a pack.</p>

<p>He watched animals
protect their young.</p>

<p>Share warmth.</p>

<p>Mourn their dead.</p>

<p>Fight only because
hunger demanded it.</p>

<p>And then he looked at mankind.</p>

<p>And wondered—</p>

<p>Why?</p>

<p>Why do we suffer
greater than beasts?</p>

<p>Why does the creature
that claims to possess reason
invent a thousand reasons
to be cruel?</p>

<p>Why does the creature
that speaks of love
practice hatred
with such precision?</p>

<p>Why does the creature
that builds temples
also build prisons?</p>

<p>Why does the creature
that writes poems
write them beside graves
it dug itself?</p>

<p>Why do we hurt
those who cannot fight back?</p>

<p>Why do we abandon
those who beg?</p>

<p>Why do we break
what is gentle—</p>

<p>and then wonder
why it became afraid?</p>

<p>He searched for the answer.</p>

<p>He searched in philosophy.</p>

<p>In religion.</p>

<p>In history.</p>

<p>In the faces of strangers.</p>

<p>In the faces of friends.</p>

<p>He searched inside himself.</p>

<p>And found nothing.</p>

<p>Only the terrible realization</p>

<p>that perhaps humanity
was never the noble thing
he believed it was.</p>

<p>Perhaps kindness
was the exception.</p>

<p>Perhaps cruelty
was the inheritance.</p>

<p>Perhaps civilization
was only a thin white cloth
draped over something ancient
and hungry.</p>

<p>And perhaps
the greatest lie
he had ever been taught</p>

<p>was that being human
was something to be proud of.</p>

<p>So the boy died.</p>

<p>Not in one moment.</p>

<p>That would have been mercy.</p>

<p>He died slowly.</p>

<p>Piece by piece.</p>

<p>Every cruelty
buried another part of him.</p>

<p>Every abandonment
covered another handful of earth.</p>

<p>Every unanswered plea
lowered the coffin deeper.</p>

<p>Until one day,</p>

<p>there was only a man.</p>

<p>A man who looks upon humanity
and feels no brotherhood.</p>

<p>No warmth.</p>

<p>No pride.</p>

<p>No longing
to be welcomed home.</p>

<p>Only disgust.</p>

<p>And pity.</p>

<p>Pity most of all.</p>

<p>Because he no longer hates them
for what they are.</p>

<p>He pities them
for what they could have been.</p>

<p>He pities the species
that learned to fly
before learning how
to stop crushing one another.</p>

<p>He pities the species
that conquered oceans
while drowning its own.</p>

<p>He pities the species
that can understand
the suffering of another creature
and still choose to cause it.</p>

<p>And when someone calls him
human,</p>

<p>something inside him recoils.</p>

<p>The word is not an identity anymore.</p>

<p>It is an insult.</p>

<p>A reminder.</p>

<p>A chain around the throat
of the boy he used to be.</p>

<p>So he refuses it.</p>

<p>He will not claim
their name.</p>

<p>He will not inherit
their pride.</p>

<p>He will not call himself
one of them.</p>

<p>Because somewhere
in the ruins of his childhood
still lies a boy
who loved humanity
with everything he had.</p>

<p>And that boy deserved
a world worthy of his love.</p>

<p>Instead,</p>

<p>they took his kindness
and called it cute.</p>

<p>They took his purity
and taught it fear.</p>

<p>They took his faith
and fed it suffering.</p>

<p>They took a child
who would have given
everything to them—</p>

<p>and gave him nothing
but reasons
to turn away.</p>

<p>So let humanity
keep its name.</p>

<p>Let it keep its crowns.</p>

<p>Its flags.</p>

<p>Its gods.</p>

<p>Its wars.</p>

<p>Its beautiful speeches
spoken over ugly deeds.</p>

<p>He wants none of it.</p>

<p>And yet—</p>

<p>he could not be silent.</p>

<p>No.</p>

<p>Silence was what they had taught him
when he begged.</p>

<p>Silence was what they offered
when he cried.</p>

<p>Silence was what surrounded him
while he suffered.</p>

<p>He would not give it back
to them.</p>

<p>So he wrote.</p>

<p>He drew.</p>

<p>He sang.</p>

<p>He screamed words
into pages
until ink became blood.</p>

<p>He took every lie
they had spoken
and dragged it into the light.</p>

<p>Every excuse.</p>

<p>Every hypocrisy.</p>

<p>Every polished word
covering an ugly deed.</p>

<p>He bore their lies
upon his back—</p>

<p>then laid them bare
before the world.</p>

<p>They knocked him down.</p>

<p>Again.</p>

<p>And again.</p>

<p>And again.</p>

<p>And each time
they looked upon the ground
expecting him to remain there.</p>

<p>But they never understood.</p>

<p>They had mistaken
his falling
for surrender.</p>

<p>They had mistaken
his silence
for weakness.</p>

<p>They had mistaken
his gentleness
for something they could
destroy without consequence.</p>

<p>So the man rose.</p>

<p>And something in him
had changed.</p>

<p>He no longer spoke
like the boy they remembered.</p>

<p>He snarled.</p>

<p>He howled.</p>

<p>A dog whipped
one time too many
does not forever remain
the creature that trembled
at the hand.</p>

<p>Eventually,</p>

<p>it bares its teeth.</p>

<p>Eventually,</p>

<p>it learns where to bite.</p>

<p>And eventually,</p>

<p>the thing that kept beating it
discovers that the creature
it thought was broken</p>

<p>still has a mouth.</p>

<p>So now—</p>

<p>he sinks his teeth
into the conscience
of his species.</p>

<p>Not flesh.</p>

<p>Not blood.</p>

<p>Truth.</p>

<p>He tears away
the comforting skin
they wrapped around themselves.</p>

<p>And when they recoil,</p>

<p>he holds up a mirror.</p>

<p>Look.</p>

<p>Look at yourselves.</p>

<p>Look at what you have made.</p>

<p>Look at the child
you taught to fear.</p>

<p>Look at the kindness
you mocked.</p>

<p>Look at the purity
you corrupted.</p>

<p>Look at the faith
you starved.</p>

<p>Look at the man
standing before you.</p>

<p>This is your reflection.</p>

<p>His name is—</p>

<p>Abraxian.</p>

<p>He chose the name himself.</p>

<p>Not human.</p>

<p>Not savior.</p>

<p>Not prophet.</p>

<p>Not saint.</p>

<p>Abraxian.</p>

<p>He is not kind.</p>

<p>He does not care
whether you approve of him.</p>

<p>He does not care
whether you like his words.</p>

<p>He does not ask
for your forgiveness.</p>

<p>He does not need
your understanding.</p>

<p>He has no interest
in being made comfortable
by your opinion of him.</p>

<p>He only asks one thing:</p>

<p>Look.</p>

<p>Look into his world.</p>

<p>Look beyond the teeth.</p>

<p>Beyond the snarling.</p>

<p>Beyond the hatred
you think you see.</p>

<p>And you may discover
something far more terrible.</p>

<p>You may discover
the boy.</p>

<p>The boy who loved you.</p>

<p>The boy who believed in you.</p>

<p>The boy who would have given
everything he possessed
to make this species
a little kinder.</p>

<p>And then you may understand
why he became the man
standing before you.</p>

<p>Why he howls.</p>

<p>Why he writes.</p>

<p>Why he sings.</p>

<p>Why he refuses your name.</p>

<p>Why he holds the mirror
instead of lowering it.</p>

<p>Because beneath every snarl
there remains an accusation.</p>

<p>Beneath every howl
there remains a plea.</p>

<p>And beneath every word
there remains the ghost
of a little boy
still asking the question
humanity never answered:</p>

<p>Why do we suffer
greater than beasts?</p>

<p>And when the mirror finally
stands before the world,</p>

<p>there is nowhere left
to hide.</p>

<p>No crown.</p>

<p>No flag.</p>

<p>No god.</p>

<p>No law.</p>

<p>No beautiful speech.</p>

<p>Only the reflection.</p>

<p>Only the truth.</p>

<p>Only humanity
staring into the eyes
of the thing it created.</p>

<p>And Abraxian
stares back.</p>

<p>He does not smile.</p>

<p>He does not forgive.</p>

<p>He does not look away.</p>

<p>He simply says—</p>

<p>“I am not one of you.”</p>

<p>And for the first time,</p>

<p>the words are not spoken
by a wounded boy.</p>

<p>They are spoken
by a man.</p>

<p>A man who survived
what was meant to destroy him.</p>

<p>A man who lost
his love for humanity—</p>

<p>but never lost
his voice.</p>

<p>And perhaps that
is humanity&#39;s greatest mistake.</p>

<p>They thought
they could break him.</p>

<p>They never understood</p>

<p>that broken things
can still howl.</p>

<p>And some of them</p>

<p>learn to bite.</p>
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